These some elements I want to discuss. It can’t be a monologue but would hope I would have time. I would alternate about speaking on more relaxed things. Or I would tell I need to tell her things. If she would like to have a conversation ? It would be first time since letter. Even though we talked a bit by skype about that but was not the same. Don’t you think it’s bad to speak too much of past ? And maybe rather focus on present and future ? Again, it’s first time we might have a conversation. But remind past may bring her some bad memories but at the same time awareness of my mistakes and changes could sooth her.

I remember on several occasion when I was apologizing and taking responsability she said thank  you, that it was important for her.