Hi Murtaza,

Im really not botherd much about people being brainwashed,

Well, you actually mentioned it a lot recently:

everyone is so brainwashed about worshipping thier parents, not because any logic, but because society tells you to do so.

anita suffering wasn’t only by her parents, i even dare say it wasn’t that at all, i like to imagine evil exist, and it could be infected to a child, what hurt her the most (in my opinion) is the normal people, the constant misunderstood and blaming and shaming, because she expected to be helped by them, because she expected them to be good, and they are, thier intention is good, society just brainwashed thier values and beliefs, that made them misunderstood and blame her for her own suffering, normal people who did those evil things to her, they aren’t so good are they?

I perfer to choose my own suffering, i perfer to foucs my energy and time on something i control, myself, not other brainwashed people, get them to like me, act in a certain way, to be accepted

You do believe that people are brainwashed – at least the people in your own country. You believe they are programmed to respect their parents, and you don’t want to respect someone who has hurt you and doesn’t deserve respect. And you’re right about that. You don’t need to “bow down” to those people. Your anger towards them is justified.

But what you are doing – is you are quick to blame yourself for having been hurt by them:

Im really not botherd much about people being brainwashed, and i don’t see them as cruel, to me people are extra, not a neccessaity, i believe most of them have good intentions and are good, and believe me, they can’t hurt me, and if they did, it will be on me, because i allowed them, evil exist, i don’t go around blaming evil for existing, i blame myself for being hurt by such evil.

People have hurt you – your parents, your siblings, your relatives and your friends – and it’s NOT your fault. They did bad, evil things to you, and it’s not your fault.

You are blaming yourself for having been vulnerable. You are blaming the little boy Murtaza for not being strong enough not to be hurt. You see how unfair it is to the little boy Murtaza – blaming him for something they did to you?

And it’s not some abstract evil that did those things to you – it’s the real people, of flesh and blood. It’s your own flesh and blood, it’s the people who were supposed to love you and care for you. You have all the reasons to be mad at them.

But you suppressed your anger at them, and are angry at everyone else – including those who truly want to help you (including us on this forum). And you are angry at yourself too, for being weak and needy.

So your anger – which is rightful and justified – is directed at wrong people. Can you see that?

• This reply was modified 3 years, 3 months ago by Tee.