In fact, we can be hurt, but we can heal from it. If someone stabs you, you are hurt

You use hurt as both internal pain and external, which is alright

When i hear or say hurt, i immediately think internal, something like being abandoned, cheating on etc.

The thing is, no one could ever hurt you internally, unless you allow him, unless you be that vulnerable, or expect anything from that psrson.

 

If someone cheats on me, and this hurt me, yes, this is the normal response to any human being, but i did let that person in my life, i did trust him fully, to be able to do that damage

 

I told you, i don’t blame evil for existing, people will cheat on you, people will hurt you, that’s reality, i only blame something under my control, to fix and updata.

 

If you close yourself in advance from love and relationships – anticipating that you will be hurt

I never said no to any experience, but yes i do anticipate being hurt, and i know this for a fact, due to my jealously problem.

 

I don’t close myself though, i be as vulnerable i can get with such person, and if he hurt me, oh well, better be careful next time, bulid some healthy beginning, to make sure he won’t do such thing.

 

Yes, love is an exchange,

You see the exchange i have to do make no sense.

 

But some people appreciate us for who we are

Unless who you are isn’t very popular in society.

 

You haven’t treated/healed his wound,

I did what i could from what i had, back in 2018 i would’ve loved a good therapist, but i learned to do it by myself, its too late now, I’ve already accepted life like this.

 

I also remember you saying me needing people for this kinda heal.

 

from the wound getting deeper

Depending on my situation, i believe this was the best option, and it still is, all you provided was me watching YouTube, bullshit i say, the only way to truely heal is to fix the original problem, a problem was made by a human, and that can be fixed by human.

 

To express anger at them (justified anger) in a safe, therapeutic setting.

I will do no such thing lol, if i started to care about how i feel, i would have a list of things to do, this is slavery to my action, i don’t accept being controlled by my silly parents pain.

 

I also hate “therapeutic setting” to express anger, they would suggest things like draw, or boxing, please.

 

I know you’re not interested in healing, but I am just saying what would need to be done – if you were interested.

Why talk like such option is so available for me? And that i don’t need sacrifice so greatly for such thing?

 

because you rationalized it by finding excuses for them

“Find excuses” no, its the truth.

I also still hate them.

 

I can do both, i can understand why they did what they did, and still hating what they did.

 

but it seeps out, and it comes out in your interactions with other people

No, my hate for people is completely different from my parents, its because of the first being so ignorant, so judgmental, so superficial.

 

you are angry at the entire world

A world which most people dislike me, create words and logic to shame me, to gulit me, a world where its so expensive to get any basic needs, a world where all of your actions has severe consequences, a world with no help, a world where nothing is free, a world with no one to trust, even your parents, a world where your whole personality and feelings and thoughts is determined by your parents and environment, a world set only for the majority of people.

So my anger is justified.

 

Workout usually does help. But it didn’t help you?

They don’t, i walked for nearly two years everyday for almost an hour, and i still hated life so much, why advertiser as if workout can do anything when in reality they only release a chemical that can make you relaxed.

 

What did you expect to gain from workout, and how were you disappointed?

I didn’t expect anything they didn’t told me, workout is  one single thing out of many many lies.