Anita,

I’m not sure if you have seen the 80’s movie the Never Ending story, but I feel like the boy in the movie.  He has this flying pet dog? that takes him on parts of his journey.  Anyway he goes through a dangerous swamp (that’s all I remember) and other places to reach a princess.  The princess saves the land and he has to rescue her.  I’m on this journey and I have a long way to go.  I don’t think I’m drowning in the swamp (got past the crappy boyfriend/anxiety trap) but I might still be in the swamp.  It’s not promising.

Do you think someone like me who uses men/relationship to forget other issues over time creates an addiction?   Like my brain is wired for anxiety and it wants more and more (addiction) too.

It was really hard the first week or two getting over my  break up with “S” but after that it started to get easier.  Some days (like today) are harder than others.  Especially during work hours.  i start to want to reach out to him.  I just kind of try and get through the feeling.  Most of the time it’s like I just forget.

It’s pretty lonely now. How do you just get self-esteem and self worth enough to not have anxiety in a relationship? I ordered books on Amazon but can you help with how this works?  I also have a lot of issues with my body. I’ve never really talked about it.

Lindsey