Dear Linarra:

I  just came back from my walk and as I walked I thought about this part in our recent communication: “but I also make the difference between this love and… the feeling of having a safe home, a familiar place where I belong. It takes more than love for a person I am afraid“-

-I thought that if you find a job as a live-in nanny, taking care of a child or children, for a small salary and room and board, as it’s called in the U.S., (you don’t pay for food, electricity, rent etc.), that could be the fastest way for you to move out, and it is likely to be way safer and more comfortable than living with your mother, (don’t tell her where you will be moving to). Plus you will not be interacting with many people, just the parent of the child, so it will be easier in regard to your social anxiety in regard to public places. I was a live-in nanny myself, a few times, if a few homes.

Or you can take care of old/ disabled people, room and board.

If any of the above stresses you, don’t worry: no pressure whatsoever, you can ignore the above completely. At the least you may like it that I am thinking about you on my walks!

I read the beginning of your post and .. my goodness.. I am smiling and feeling good about the use of the word love, it being mutual.  I am rushing.. going to the taproom, but will be back to you Fri morning, my time and answer your latest post thoroughly… I feel like closing this post with the word, you know.. but feeling awkward. I hope you are sleeping well!

anita