Anita,

I’m not sure where to start.  What is it called when you feel backed up against a wall?  Numb and staring into space.  Not able to deal with what’s going on?

My ex never let my children and I go to the circus on Sunday. I basically begged on Saturday at the football game.  I have a referral for a female attorney and I am calling today.  It’s not going to be fun seeing my savings take a hit.

I had a 3 day weekend with no specific plans. the only thing I am proud of is that I never reached out to S.  And I thought about it more than once.  I just cleaned, took afternoon naps, bought a really good book.  Peacefull/lonely.

There is something wrong with my ex and his girlfriend A. I had coffee yesterday with her ex-husband’s wife. We are becoming really good friends.  There was so much I learned about A. One thing is that she slept with all the attorneys at her job. She is a paralegal.  Everything they critisize me for they do.  I’m confused with them. I don’t understand them. But I know I can no longer deal with their attacks. They are vultures.  I’m going to make sure there is never direct communication-going to use a 3rd party for everything.  Make sure there is lots of space at events.

I feel attacked and isolated.  My mom texted me yesterday asking if I still had my wedding ring so she could make a necklace with the diamonds.  I got a little upset.

It’s one thing after another.  I am not feeling my best.  Because it is too much for me part of my brain has shut down.

Lindsey