Anita,

Things have been pretty much normal and stress free when I spoke to you last until yesterday.

For me I believe that the few days or week before I start my  period make an impact on my emotional behavior.  That being said I feel like I’ve been argumentative with my ex  for the last 2 days.  So I’m starting over today.  That’s really all I can do. He’s so awful to deal with.  He brings up such petty things.  He gives instructions on what not to forget all the time with the kids.  The frustration builds up over time.   I found out yesterday that he has hired an attorney.  I was hoping that he would not but really it’s not a surprise.  I do believe things will work out like they are supposed to.  I deserve it.

So I met someone a few days ago really by chance.  I was bored one evening and reopened my account for a dating site that I had not used for probably a year and half.  I actually deleted the app a few times because the guys tend to be a joke.  So  by random I spoke with a man named Marty.  Anita- it is very disturbing I have run to  unhealthy men with red flags.  I was running to them because I was wired that way.  It’s all I knew.  No boundaries.

This guy is so normal.  He is not trying to rush things.  He doesn’t say good morning and goodnight and basically check in during the day.  We have actual conversations.  He doesn’t ask things that are too private.  I do not have any anxiety. I don’t wonder or re read texts.  It’s like I’m interested but if it doesn’t work out whatever.  I don’t feel a sense of attachment.  It’s hard to explain.

Anyway I’m still on vacation and I’m trying to get things back on track like they should be.  Hope you are having a good morning.

Lindsey