As I read your most recent post, I am listening to Whitney Houston’s Run to You. I don’t know if listening to this song will make you feel better or worse, I just happen to love this song: “I want to run to you.. ohh.. but if I come to you.. ahhh.. tell me, will you stay or will you run awayyyyy??? Run.. away.. I need you here to wipe away my tears, to kiss away my fears… How much I want to run to you… ooh.. will you hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm..?
Isn’t this beautiful.. the yearning we have to run to someone who will keep us safe from harm..?
Anyway, back to reality, Shawn ain’t the one for you to run to! I like your “bird LOL”- another one of Lindsey’s LOLs and I know therefore that Lindsey is okay.
Emotional hurt is more than bruising a leg. About putting yourself in the same position again and again.. and again.. I did too. There is a term for it, the compulsion to repeat, or the repetition compulsion.
Something positive to tell you.. let me think.. Here is a saying: “Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does change the future“- and by forgiving I mean: forgive yourself for the again-and-again part, for the compulsion to repeat: no reason for you to feel bad about yourself because the compulsion to repeat is not specific to you, it’s a Human Compulsion.. everyone is compelled to repeat this or that, and often it’s bad or ineffective behaviors that are repeated. Mine currently is procrastination. If you forgive yourself for being human, you are less likely to repeat and .. the future will indeed be different for you!