Dear Lindsey:

Keep preparing for the mediation next Friday. I hope the weather Sat or Sun is good enough to enjoy the zoo and to get the animals out and about so that you and the kids will enjoy watching them. Las zoo I was in was years ago, the Los Angeles Zoo, I remember walking a lot, up and down, a spread out zoo.

“The last two times I met Jason I took the least amount of benzo as possible…  Anita I felt like what it would be like to not have an anxiety disorder. It was awesome really”– I remember the magic.. although after some time of taking a benzo (Klonipin) regularly, the magic was gone. Tolerance to drugs means “a person’s diminished response to a drug, which occurs when the drug is used repeatedly and the body adapts to the continued presence of the drug” (online).  I guess that you experienced that awesome relief from your usual anxiety because you didn’t take it for days or longer before meeting Jason.

“But guess what- for 2 days I felt like I had a hangover.  I had increased anxiety-it was pretty bad“- if currently you are not dependent on benzos, stop taking them. It was hell for me to quit Klonipin.. I almost failed to accomplish it. SSRIs are much preferrable.

“Also-my friend does tell me to stay away from men in general.  He says that I need someone who is not good looking and not good with the ladies because they will be the nice guys“- is he not good looking and .. not good with the lades.. lol?

anita