I totally Agree Sarah.

As I was laying on the floor, lost and defeated, with total emptiness and shattered into thousand pieces, I realised that I have never been able to permit myself to receive any help. I just came back from a 6weeks stay at the psych ward. The saddest part is that I need and want help, but my mind won’t let me. I tried ECT(Electroconvulsive therapy) with limited success. Now I’m afraid that there are no options left. I don’t know why I’m writing this, but I just want to thank you and everybody else on the forum.