Dear SSS,

Sorry for the late reply. Thank you for your love and caring. I have tried to answer your questions.

What do you want? I want inner peace, a life with fewer regrets. I want to forgive myself for all the hurting and pain I have given everyone. I want to ask for forgiveness from my unborn child. I want to forgive my ex-girlfriend that committed suicide. I want to live my life carefree and with some joy. I don’t want to live in my past, I want bygones to be bygones.

What/how do you want to feel? I want to be happy or at least just feel alive. I just exist at the moment, just empty, just breathing. I want to stop comparing myself to others, stop hating myself, stop wishing I was dead.

Do you want things to be…different? I just want things to be “normal”, I want a family and I want to be loved. I wish I had some friends and people around me that cared and loved me.

Would you accept or embrace change? I want changes but I’m at the time scared of changes.