Anita,

I have been wanting to write you for the last 3 days but things seem like more of a chore.  Things that have happened in the last week or so I feel tired writing about.

I don’t know that I told you but we had our last mediation on Friday.  My ex tried to add a few things via email when we were emailed our final paperwork to sign and return to the mediator. This would have been sometime in the beginning of last week.  I sat down and found that his girlfriend is writing about 90% of his messages on The Wizard app. (an app for divorced parents to communicate)  She is not just updating schedules; she is using passive aggressive tactics with her comments and the messages are really bad. I’ve mostly ignored them.  He was in rare form during the final mediation because I brought this up.  His behavior of putting me down in every possible way as a parents caused the mediator to say some strong comments to him at the end and she was taking up for me. I came home on Friday and slept all afternoon.  I slept a lot on Saturday too.  I do not think a lot was accomplished other than hopefully the nasty messages will stop.  I’m starting to document all of the small things he is doing to not cooperate as a co parent.  I feel very down about my life in general.

I have continued to see Jason.   I basically laugh at myself because this guy lives in a really nice house and has a new car.  I live in a condo and my car squeaks when I drive it.  I have no idea how to be in a healthy relationship.  What else can I do but laugh and keep a distance? After coffee I met him for dinner and it went very well.  He said that he likes me/is interested in me and on Sunday he invited me to run some errands.  This was last week.  We are supposed to get together this week.  I have a feeling that one of his faults is that he talks down to a spouse/girlfriend maybe if he or she gets upset.  That is the only negative thought i have to date.  I did ask him a question he found too serious and said he thought that was too intense for where we were. The question was “what is a negative quality yo have and how has that has effected relationships?)  I never replied because it annoyed me.  I didn’t think the question was that intense and I was sick of talking about superficial things.  I deleted his number and just thought oh well.

He text me the next morning and answered the question.  I was confused because he basically put up a boundary and then retracted it.  He said he was just tired-which i don’t really believe.  I think that he might have been worried he came across too harsh. And possible he is interested in me-even though my car squeaks LOL

Lindsey