Anita,

I am doing well. I am not feeling well though. Very confusing but I also remember you referring to this at some point in our previous conversations.

How are you?

I have been working at the same place for 4months now. Never thought I’d be here again. I survived a lot to be comfortable here. I’m catching up on all of my bills and moving forward to a more relaxed situation. I’ve tried a lot of new things. Some that were fun and others not comfortable but slowly starting adventure again. Things were so stressful for a while. Everything is so expensive and doing it alone is very new to me. But I am doing it and hoping by the end of March I’ll begin a savings again and begin considering my big goal of owning property at some point in my life.

Other than that I’ve struggle connecting again. Connection comes so hard for me. I also don’t try as hard as I could. I assume once my finances aren’t such a stressor and things become well in my budget it will free up some space for more fun interesting things. That is my hope.

I have been single this whole time Anita. I miss having a man in my life. I think about my ex almost daily. I think about how much he hurt and then I stop. But sometimes I feel like neither of us were well in the relationship. Sometimes I wish we could give it another shot. But so many wise people tell me to move on. Sometimes I feel like it’s just familiarity and others the resources he has and the long life dream I have of a husband and children and beautiful home. But am I wrong for that?

I am sorry for another delay in response and then a totally all over the place response lol. Just my thoughts

I look forward to hearing from you

Nichole 🙂