Thank you Anita

I do not know what it was that calmed me. But I imagined it all last night and I imagine anyone holding me most nights. I am on my period and it tends to get worse during this time. I am a woman and have not been with a man since my ex. I miss him. I miss having a man in my life. In my bed at night. Helping me with providing. My cat is so needy, I need someone to help me with him at times. I miss someone to go to dinner with. I miss someone to go to the beach with. And so yes I have extended myself to groups and even tried to date but its so hard to make new connections when I still have so much trauma built up and I feel like I keep adding more by trying to do everything alone. I am sorry I feel that I am having a little melt down today. Am I being unreasonable?