Dear Anita,

I love how detailed your analysis is. Allow me to be clearer:

1. Regarding the money, originally, her parents (however I think it was just her mom) gave her the money for investment. But that 2nd guy lost the money as he made a reckless decision. Later when her dad retired and she knew her family’s financial state was no longer the same as before (while her dad was still working), she decided to use her own savings for the CFA to compensate for the lost money and give it back to her parents.
2. So there are 2 sums of money: 1) the money that she was given for investment.   2) her own saving money (meant for the CFA) that she used to make up for the loss. They’re equal in quantity. When we still talked to each other, she told me that she had talked about the loss & compensation to her mom. She didn’t mention her dad. I suppose she hid this from her dad.
3. One more detail, when her dad’s company dissolved, he was sad and used alcohol as a relief (my GF told me this). When I tried to convince her to see me in front of her door to make sure she was okay, she refused because she didn’t wanna face her dad and have an argument. It was a late night at the time I tried to talk her into meeting me.

4. You explained that you are a city dweller, but she was not, being that her family lived in a small town in Vietnam. Her father wanted her to attend a school located in the city, which required that she would have a city address, so he asked a favor from a city dweller to use that person’s address as his daughter’s.

   -> Not the person’s daughter, but rather a family member. We used to have that small booklet for information about people who lived at a certain address so that person did a favor by adding my GF’s name to his home address (city home) booklet

5. I had a minor motorbike accident and I tried to hide it from her. But when she found out, she insisted on taking care of me by taking a look at my wound and making sure I didn’t have any infection (I had treated the wound after I got home but she wanted to check by herself)
6. A lot of times, she wanted to order food to my home after I came back from work. She was worried that I may have been hungry. She was genuine and nice so I wanted to love her as much and as long as possible. In addition, she bought me gifts, too, even though I had told her she should not get me gifts.

7. she pushed you away primarily because it made her life easier, it lowered her stress level somehow. Maybe she felt guilty for dragging you down with her and pushed you away so to no longer feel guilty.Maybe she was too stressed about the CFA exam and recent events and did want the added stress of being in a relationship with you. What do you think?

• Do you mean ” and did NOT want the added stress of being in a relationship with you.”?
• She did tell me that she didn’t want me to be stuck with her. But even in her worst, I still wanna be there for her.
• Perhaps, she was too stressed about the CFA and recent events…. that’s why I can’t be mad at her for breaking my heart. From the beginning of this relationship, she told me that she needed time to heal from her 2 toxic exes. However, we took the shortcut straight to being in a relationship as a couple.
• There was one time we were together (we were already in a relationship). She asked me if I was in a relationship with her because I felt pity for her (owing to all the bad things she had gone through in life), and then she cried. I told her I wanted a relationship with her because I really loved her (I still do love her now). At that time, she told me that her heart was tired and she didn’t wanna be hurt anymore. I calmed her down and told her things were gonna be okay.
• She would ask me about all the sweet things I said to her and all the sweet acts/ gestures that I did for her. She wanted to be sure that all those things came out of love, not pity. The asking started soon after we’d decided to be in a relationship. Later on, it stopped and I think that she really trusted me with the fact that I really really loved her (I still love her very much now).
• Now I realized that I once did the very same thing that she just did to me. I broke my exes’ hearts because I still had feelings for another ex of mine who went back to the US. I knew that getting back together with that American ex is never gonna happen as she refuses to be in a long-distance relationship. I totally get that as being in a long-distance relationship can be very frustrating.
• I could have tried harder to move on and be with my exes. I knew they would have brought me happiness had I decided to stay and try. Yet I chose the easy way out and left them for fear of dealing with my emotions and ration. My problem was nothing compared to my GF’. She’s been through a lot.

Thank you, Anita.

Here’s my email address in case you wanna communicate faster and more easily: tobi.nguyenn@gmail.com

I feel like I can learn a lot from you and I have realized a lot only after reading your replies.

• This reply was modified 2 years, 7 months ago by Tobi. Reason: I want to make things clearer by adding more details