Hi Anita

I am doing ok. I still have my days and moments where I just get depressed and start crying .  I keep asking myself why did he do this to me or how could he do this to me. I miss him terribly.  I go for long walks to try to clear my head .  But the memories of us just come back. Especially at night.  The nights are the worst. I thought about going on anti depressants but I don’t want to become dependent on those.  My friends and family keep telling me to move on. But how can you move on when your have experienced something like this.  It’s very difficult.   I keep wondering what he’s doing or he’s probably with someone else now.  Thinking that hurts me more.  I loved him with everything I had .  Not a day goes by that I don’t think of him.  I wonder if he thinks of me too.
my friend tried fixing me up on a date.  I couldn’t go through with it.  The feeling wasn’t there.  It didn’t feel right to me to be on that date. So I cut it short. I came home and cried.  Will i ever go back to being myself before i met my ex fiancé ?