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  • #402461
    Arie1276
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    Anita

    yes it’s true I can’t make this up even if I tried

     

    #402462
    anita
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    Dear Arie1276:

    Incredible! Did my suggestion/ info in my last post help you any?

    anita

    #402465
    Arie1276
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    Anita.
    You’re response did help me some.

    #402472
    anita
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    Dear Arie1276:

    Thank you for letting me know that it helped you some. I know that you need much more help than this so to stop hurting. How are you functioning these days, work and all?

    anita

    #402511
    Arie1276
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    Anita

    im still hurting deeply.  I’m down 11 pounds from not eating much.  I can barely think .  I work in the medical field and I’m finding it hard to concentrate on my job.   My co workers have noticed a change in me. I was once bright and bubbly. Now I’m a walking empty shell looking sad and not caring about anything anymore.   He really hurt me.  I can’t stop thinking about him and how much I want him to come back.  I can’t even get a hold of him.  His phone is shut off because my friend tried calling from her number and it went straight to voicemail on several different occasions.  He made a new Facebook account and it showed up on my feed.  I am not blocked from it.  I just want to reach out to him one last time.   If he didn’t live with me or we weren’t engaged or got “married” , it would have been easier I think.  I wake up hoping he would be beside me.
    His one friend who owns a Turkish restaurant invited me there soon to visit her and her husband.  But I feel I can’t go because we went there a lot. It would be too painful for me.
    I still can’t understand how he can just pick up and leave me like this without talking to me face to face like and adult and talking things through .   I keep wondering if he will ever come back to me or even misses me.  It just hurts .

    #402514
    anita
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    Dear Arie1276:

    This is what happens when you form a strong emotional attachment to a person, and then that person is gone from your life: it hurts deeply; you lose your appetite, your ability to concentrate and think clearly, and to care about anything (“not caring about anything anymore”) except for one thing: wanting that person back (“I want him to come back”).

    On his part- if he formed an emotional attachment to you, his attachment weakened so much that he is now emotionally detached to you. In your second post 8 days ago (the day before he moved out), you wrote: “He seems quite distant… We barely see each other… I cry every day… We talked about it several times, and nothing has changed” –

    – he has been emotionally detaching from you for quite some time before he finally moved out. He seemed distant= detached, he preferred to spend his time elsewhere while still living with you, and then… he preferred to spend all his time away from you.

    Why am I mentioning the topic of emotional attachment (your current state of mind and heart) vs emotional detachment (his current state of mind and heart)? Because I am hoping that the difference will sink in and that you will become more willing to weaken your attachment to him and reciprocate his detachment.

    anita

    #402608
    Arie1276
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    Anita

    I am starting to feel a little better.  Not much.  I just can’t stop thinking about him.  I feel so empty and my heart is still so heavy .  I am grieving .  I have no interest in doing anything .  I go with my friends and i cant even get myself to enjoy my time with them.  All I do is thing about him.    I know this is wrong but my friend tried to call him for me while i was in her presence on her phone….it went directly to voicemail.  We tried for several hours.  Still went to voicemail.  His phone has been shut off or else it would have rang. If he changed his number it would have said number no longer in service.  I just wanted to talk to him so bad.   I still believe it was his friends that convinced him to leave me.  If they told him to come back to me , i think he would.   I re read the last text he wrote. I feel it wasn’t him talking  His texts are broken english.  The texts he sent were not broken english.  I believe it was his so called “cousin” talking. Not him.   I miss him badly.   I can’t even go to the places we went to.  It hurts too much still.   I dont’ think he realized how much pain he has caused when he left.   So many things remind me of him and us.  I can’t even delete our pictures off facebook and instagram.     I want closure. I want answers.  I know he didn’t want this.  When i spoke to his friend who owns the restaurant we went to alot, she said the week before all he talked about was how much he loved me and how much he wanted to marry me, and how he wanted us to get married at her restaurant and have our dinner party there.   Im still so confused.   People and friends tell me to move on and get over it.  How can you just move on and get over it?   They don’t understand.   My one friend suggested to pay a visit to his friend who owns the restaurant and sit and talk with her.  I may do that at some point. She told me i am welcome there anytime.

    I have read about anxious attachment.  I know i have it.   I read about avoidment attachment too. Which he has too.

    The other day, my friend tried to fix me up on a blind date.  I simply excused myself and walked out.  I am not ready and I can’t date and use these men as bandaids.  It would not be fair.   I need to be alone.  I still want to get my passport and take a long trip to clear my head, but i have noone to go with me.

    This is so painful and feels like my insides have been ripped out.   Its a nightmare!  Maybe one day he will realize what he did and realize the grass isn’t always greener on the other side and come back.  He kept telling me the other girls he dated were crazy and money hungry since he was an mma fighter but he quit fighting for awhile, until he met me and told me I am normal and not like the other girls.    I pray everyday he will reach out to me.

     

    #402609
    anita
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    Dear Arie1276:

    “I want closure. I want answers… When I spoke to his friend who owns the restaurant, we went to a lot, she said the week before all, he talked about was how much he loved me and how much he wanted to marry me… at her restaurant and have our dinner party there…. My one friend suggested to pay a visit to his friend who owns the restaurant and sit and talk with her.  I may do that at some point. She told me I am welcome there anytime” –

    – Maybe it’s a good idea to visit her because she told you that you are welcome there anytime and never told you otherwise, right? Maybe you will have your answers and closure if you observe how she reacts to seeing you and what she says to you. Why wait to do it “at some point”, why not today?

    anita

    #403134
    anita
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    How are you, Arie1276?

    anita

    #403206
    Arie1276
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    Hi Anita

    I am doing ok. I still have my days and moments where I just get depressed and start crying .  I keep asking myself why did he do this to me or how could he do this to me. I miss him terribly.  I go for long walks to try to clear my head .  But the memories of us just come back. Especially at night.  The nights are the worst. I thought about going on anti depressants but I don’t want to become dependent on those.  My friends and family keep telling me to move on. But how can you move on when your have experienced something like this.  It’s very difficult.   I keep wondering what he’s doing or he’s probably with someone else now.  Thinking that hurts me more.  I loved him with everything I had .  Not a day goes by that I don’t think of him.  I wonder if he thinks of me too.
    my friend tried fixing me up on a date.  I couldn’t go through with it.  The feeling wasn’t there.  It didn’t feel right to me to be on that date. So I cut it short. I came home and cried.  Will i ever go back to being myself before i met my ex fiancé ?

    #403221
    anita
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    Dear Arie1276:

    It reads like you are doing a bit better than ten days ago when we last communicated. I hope that you continue to get better, and without antidepressants (because you don’t want to depend on those).

    How can you move on when your have experienced something like this.  It’s very difficult” – difficult but possible, give it more time and take on the attitude that you will move on, that you are already moving on bit by bit. At times visualize yourself moving on and take those images in.

    Will I ever go back to being myself before I met my ex fiancé ?“- what if you get to be an even better, more evolved person than you were before you met this man… wiser, stronger?

    anita

     

    #403454
    anita
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    Happy 4th of July, Arie1276!

    anita

    #403471
    Arie1276
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    Anita

    Happy 4th of July to you too!

    #403472
    anita
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    Good to get your message, thank you, Arie1276. Remember you can post here anytime you want to share/ vent, if it helps.

    anita

    #403699
    Arie1276
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    Anita

    Update:

    Two days ago, I had reached out to my ex fiance one last time.  The only place he did not block me I found was Instagram messenger that was connected to my fb messenger.  He had sent me a funny meme 2 months ago while we were still together and I had kept it there.   I called him on that messenger.  I hung up.  Then few seconds later he replied with a question mark.

    Our conversation went like this:   I said Hi How are you?  .  Him: Im okey how are you.  Me: Are you out working ? Him: Yes, how are you?  .  Me: Im really not ok.   Him: ! why.  Me: Do you miss me? .  Him: No.   Me:How can you say that?  Him: Please I no want broken your heart.  Good Luck Jeni.   Me:  You did .  You hurt me so bad.   Him: Take care of yourself.  You nice girl, a nice man  a nice person will come in your life.  Me:  Then why did you leave me if Im all that.  I loved you! You left me so heartbroken and empty.  Him: Im sorry.  You have so nice life.  Me:  How could you do that to someone you loved?    Him: I No have good life, Im sorry. I no can give you a good life I don’t want us to stay anymore together. I don’t wanna break your heart.

    Me:   Why did you do this.  You wanted al of it with me and then to leave me like you did.  Thats not love.    Him:  ok. sorry.

    Me:   You don’t hurt the ones you love no matter what.   Him:  Ok.  Me:  I miss you ok. And I keep hoping you will come back.  Him:  Im sorry im not still anymore in (our city).  Me:  Where did you go    Him:  Im in Florida.    Me: I had a feeling you had moved there.   Him:  If you want text me still friend.  If you not want to text me, its ok too.   Me: How can I when Im blocked.

    Him: Im  open.  I know can stay anymore in (our city).   Me: I tried calling you several times.  Is that why you left me so you can go to florida?   Him: Not call me now, Im not ready to talk to you.  You nice girl , you have nice family, I respect everybody. Please forget me.   Me:  How can i forget you.  You will always have a place in my heart.  I wanted nothing more than to be your wife so much.  I wont forget you.  Please tell me the  truth.  Why did you leave me?   We could have talked about everything.

    Him: Sorry. Take care yourself.   Me:  Did you love me? Please tell me the truth.  Did it hurt you to leave me like you did?  Him: Sorry.    Me: Anyways I guess it doesn’t really matter now. I wish you the best babe.  I will miss you so much.  Just know that I truly deeply did love you unconditionally.  I still do love you.  You meant everything to me.  Through the pain and the tears after you left me….I still do love you and will always miss you.  You will always have a special place in my heart.    Him: ok. (and a prayer emoji)  I know cant say nothing sorry good luck.  I gave you everything so nice.  God give you everything so nice.

    Me:  Thank you.   Him: You are a nice person when you’re a nice girl you want a good life.  I no can give you a good life.  I think you will find normal guy start love different person different guy.   Me:  I don’t think I can for a long time.  You really made an impact on me and my life.  I fell in love with you instantly and your culture. Everything!! I don’t think i will ever love another man like i loved you in a very long time.     Him:  ok. Take care of yourself. Be careful ok.  Me: ok . You too sweetie.  Please keep in touch with me ok.  Him: ok.

    That was the last conversation even though his english was broken..  I have some closure.  But….I never cried so hard in my entire life.  He really impacted my life.  My heart is still heavy with sadness.   I miss him so damn much it hurts.   He is now in another state and there is nothing I can do about it.  There was nothing I could have done to stop him from leaving me.  I know deep down he misses me and loves me but didn’t want to tell me because he didn’t want to break my heart any further than it was already.

    I guess Im not meant to be loved or to be with anyone.   Everyone tells me to move on, forget him.  I just wish someone would explain it to my heart.   Im completely heartbroken.    I still cry a lot  I cry in the car when our songs come on, I cry at home, i cry after i get to my car after work,  I try to keep it together at family functions and when i go out with friends.   I am a complete mess.   People keep telling me it was too fast, it was only 3 months together.  Yes that may all be true, but if both parties feel it is right , why not.  Life is short.    But those 3 months we were each others everything, inseperable basically.   We loved each other soo much, but he loved me enough to leave me because he felt he couldn’t provide for me and give me the life I deserve.   I will miss him forever .

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