Anita,

Hope you had a great 4th of July!  I was at the beach with my family from July 2nd to the 5th. The fireworks were very good- probably the best I have seen.  The trip was fun- my mom did get on my nerves but I made sure to keep an even keel with everyone- her and my dad paid for the trip and are dealing with my sister and her dead beat boyfriend.

I got back late Tuesday night and was playing catch-up at work yesterday.

Things are great with Jason- he picked me up from the airport Tuesday night and this weekend is our weekend I guess you could label – with no kids.

My level of anxiety is currently a 2 out of 10.  I did have some anxiety last week- more of an overwhelming feeling of things I needed to do- but it resolved by the time I got on the plane.  I started to get extreme anxiety when my son was born almost 9 years ago- The days seem to fly by now.  My thoughts are on what I am doing in the moment.  My brain just does not go into worry mode. I feel so much better and I wish I would have thought of this med combination years ago.  It is hard not to look back and wish I had done things different.

The Lamitcal I am taking really seems to keep me focused and alert so I do not feel tired and foggy- I was only on the Lexapro from 2004 to 2009 and had this side effect.

I hope all is well- not much to report here besides I am keeping no contact with my ex as much as possible.  I do not use the parenting app unless absolutely necessary.  In the past the biggest issue was scheduling pick up/drop offs for the kids with sporting events.  My schedule changed from 9- 5:30 to 8:30 to 5 recently which will help with future transportation.  My plan is to do my best with transportation- if the kids are late I’m trying my best- if he wants to assist with getting them places he can- he  signs them up for sports and never gives a heads up or details of what future schedules with look like and a plan for transportation.

This has caused a lot of issues in the past- stress and frustration- best to avoid as much as possible. Will not ask for assistance- he is aware of my work schedule and that I get off at 5pm.

Lindsey

Lindsey