hey anita!

heres the thing, my stepfaather is sick and the one i had a soft spot for is mm y biological dad.i can proudly say that he doesnt have that much of an effect on my mood nowadays and i certanly dont have the soft spot for him anymore. its firmer. i talked to him about all the things that were wrong about our relationship and i poured my heart to him beginning of this year so that really helped.

about my mom, she is trying super hard to stay positive during this times and is trying to support all members of the family since my fathers diagnosis. i love her more than anyone or anything in the world and im forever grateful for everything she has done for me, for us.

i still havent figured out why my bestfriend suddenly stopped talking to me. i sometimes gat an urge to call her up or something in the hopes of her missing me too. i miss her greatly. our mutual friends tell me all the time that she is happy with how the things are now and that she would like things for to stay as it is tho so i wont call her proably.

with my  boyfriend we basically had a fallout. i was actually thinking of ending things long before our breakup. we werent talking, communicating like we use to do. we drifted apart and both of us did nothing to prevent this. it was a painfull breakup we both cried like crazy in a starbucks which is a core memory now. we both relied on eachother so much and as expected we both took it very hard. we moved on tho. when time goes and everybody else moves on you cant stay in the same place. i have the best memories with him and it is good that we ended things without getting ugly.

the weather is reeeeaaly unbearable and i really dont have time to go to the beach. im at the library everyday. maybe ill take a break like you said and treat myself with a full day of resting.

so much love

soma