hello, thank you for commenting
i did read i wrote because i did try psychotherapy  and even meds as i saw you reccomended, and i dont feel i can live like this anymore.

all the things i mentiond befor is very confusing and makes me totally lose all intrest in my life as i used to live it. i just want to feel im straight and not question it all the time thinking im in denail, or the feeling that im hidding something (even when i did tell my perents)

i just feel like im a completely different person when i think “maybe im in denail”

i want this to stop