Good Afternoon My Friend,

Father’s advice~ Kind of funny but true.  I can still hear him saying this to me as a teenager.  He sat me down and told me to get an education and always depend on myself because a man will marry me and leave me barefoot & pregnant.

It got the point across quickly.  I understand that may sound a bit harsh but it got my attention.  You would need to have known my Father because some of his sayings you need to read between the lines.  Regardless of if it was right or wrong for an adult to say that to a teenager I am grateful he did because when he said that I did better in school, went to college, worked & didn’t go out partying & drinking as my friends did.

Saved my $$$,  got my first apartment age 17 with this girl and she moved out 2 weeks later leaving me in an empty apartment because I moved in with her & it was her furniture.  I wasn’t going to let that defeat me & tell my father I couldn’t make it.  I purchased a used cheap sofa & slept on it, No Television or anything except my clothes.

A few weeks later I found used appliances and as time progressed I purchased used bedroom furniture picked up another small job (every penny counted for me at that time) & I survived.  Wasn’t the nicest area but I survived until  I had a few break-ins.

I was very uncomfortable with that and purchased a small house on the other side of town closer to my Parents and was very happy.  Bought new furniture.  I guess that is why as an adult I buy new.

The girl I moved in with was older & she knew I was a struggling teenager and just moved in with her boyfriend leaving me holding the bag.  I survived, but it proved my Father was right except mine started with a girl so it primed me to always be cautious.

Done with the ex & it doesn’t hurt because last night I realized a lot of things after a lot of soul searching & asked myself if we did get together would it work?  My answer was clearly no, not as a couple.

I enjoy music/movies. a good book, my babies, and my house is lived in.  I don’t stress if I don’t make my bed every day or wash a dish every time I cook.  Don’t get me wrong I am very clean & neat just not 100% of the time.  He has a girl that cleans his house twice a week.  A yard guy & if he needs something fixed he makes a call to have it fixed.  He told me he had $$$, not time.

Even with the spark we have, I believe if we were together as a couple it would be a disaster.

I hope the fire & wind calm down or you get some rain, I’m sure it can be uncomfortable looking at smoke and heavy winds.  A very dangerous combination.

When I got home last night there was a long text on my phone & at the end of the text, he added, Sorry, butt dial.  How could he have made that butt call to me when it referred to me and he has 100s of numbers in his phone.  I gave no response.  He texted again this morning and afternoon and have received several more texts of course I did not respond.  I detest games but I don’t want to block him because that is immature and it is just as easy to delete the text.

2 of my fur babies are starting to feel better but still a way to go for them to be back 100% & Stash’s condition is uncurable since it is a heart condition along with several other health issues which he was born with and also uncurable.

Stash has been playing more and seems to be feeling better but I still need to give him meds and keep an eye on him because when it is his time the end result is a heart attack.  Even a bad cold or open wound would cause his death because he also has FIV which causes him to have no immune system.

I am going to wash clothes today & be lazy.  Music & movies…LOL

Have a nice day & look forward to a read from you.

Your Friend,

Shookie~