Dear anita,

if she makes a mistake, if her hair is a bit messy… will you leave her?

= No i wont, because no matter how her hairstyle is, she’s still her…. The person who i love to interact with….

The other reason that is hard to believe is that, if she really genuinely want me…. It’ll be very hard to believe for me…. Like is it really possible for someone like me?

you can take another heartbreak. You took the first and you can take a second. You are very successful when it comes to enduring pain: you endured and survived so much anxiety (which is a form of pain) for.. how many years?

= well yeah, i’ve endured pain for several years already…. But another heartbreak will still be a painful one, maybe more painful than the previous one…. I hope i can avoid it….

I havent told her at all about my anxiety… and also all of my insecurities…. As i dont want to take any risks….

it is not possible for you to not make a mistake for a whole single day;  it is definitely not possible for you to never make a mistake. It is not possible for anyone… including for her. Yet, you expect the impossible when it comes to yourself.

= Well yeah, it’s impossible to not make a mistake….. But the thing is that i’m trying my best to be creative everytime i met her/ texts her through texts…. So that she wont get bored of me….. Because i saw one of the reasons why relationships dont work out is because of boredom…. And i’d like to avoid that…. But i know sooner or later i’ll ran out of ideas….. it’s only two months but i feel like i’m going to ran out of ideas soon…..

I really want to find a solution for this….

you’ve been reading online surveys recently so to answer the following: (1) when should I confess and commit to marriage: at the end of this year? In 3 years? In 7 years? (2) Should I have more than one relationship before I commit to marriage? (3) What if she gets bored with me? (4) What if she changes her mind about me when she graduates uni and starts working?

= so this still counts as obsession too? Not a research for a better outcome? As i want to best possible outcome for me…..

Or, if you want to make it simpler, you can give her this compliment: you are my type of girl! and still be prepared to tell her in what ways she is your type of girl.

= I dont think she’s ready to be complimented like this, because once she sent me a pic of her and her friends in her friend’s birthday party… And i told her that her outfit was good (she told me she’s so picky in choosing her outfit, and took a long time to pick that one) and also i complimented that she look pretty there….
Because she told me the one beside her was pretty as she’s petite and etc, but i told her the one beside that girl was prettier (her)… then she just laugh and her reaction was a bit awkward…. So i dont think she’s ready to be complimented like that…..