Hello, Anita!

I just wanted to share

I started a relationship with a guy, who is amazing, caring and loving. I am attracted to physically and emotionally.

and it’s like we are having normal relationships.

and recently we had sex and like there is no chemistry. I didn’t feel it.

And all these OCD thoughts came back.

I think that I can’t be with a man, I don’t want to have sex. I can’t have a normal relationships, because I am used to violent and abusive relationships.

And I just keep crying, what is wrong with me?

Why can’t I just have sex?
And now I think that might be a sign I should start dating women, because I just fail with men.