Good evening Anita,

The language barrier isn’t severe.  He speaks English well.   Well enough for me to understand him and him understand me.   Its just when he speaks to his friends in his language.  As of today,  I am in the process of learning turkish online.   As for him participating in them talking about me, I have no clue.  He usually sits with the men and I with the women.   But the women don’t talk to me in english much.   So i usually sit there in silence.   But I think he will tell me if they talk about me.   Its just frustrating at time.s

It is so hard to put the past in the past and just concentrate on the present and look at the real time evidence. I am trying to put that all behind me.

He also drives people from point A to point B for a living. So he leaves when i do in the morning for work. Then he comes home in the afternoon and will sleep, eat dinner and then go back out to work and will work til usually late.  That is how he makes his money. In his culture the men provide for the family, so he works a lot.    I work full time during the day.  So i am home alone mostly in the evenings and on weekends in the evenings unless we are invited to meet friends or family or just go out .   It gets quite lonely.   I have family that is almost an hour away that I will visit few times a week.   I have no friends here where we live.   I mostly stay home when i come home from work.   It gets quite lonely and i cry a lot because I wish he had a different job where he came home at a normal time and didn’t work weekends.   He talks about going back to school for a different career path, but I don’t push the issue because he doesn’t like to be pushed.  I think he will figure it out eventually and do it on his own.   So…yes…it gets lonely.   He knows all this except he doesn’t know i cry or I wish he had a different job.  Some of his friends do the same type of job too and they have families.      Its just frustrating at times.