Hello Anita,

It’s been a while.  I hope you are doing well.

I have been a bit stressed & seem to be turning into a recluse.  I like being alone with all the bad things going on.

When it rains, it pours.

I want to move so bad, I have no friends here except 1 & we mostly talk on the phone.  She treats me better than my sister ever did.

My neighbor which I thought were friends invited me to come over to a Football Party she was having a few weeks before the party date and I told her I would come.  I got sick with a 102 temperature & had gone 7 days and couldn’t eat.  My Dr. called in something for me and it took a few days.  I am feeling better now.

She hasn’t called since the party.  I am not playing games with her.  She is 70 and is acting like a spoiled teenager.  I am glad I found this out sooner than later.

And I don’t and haven’t called the 20 yr. separation friend.  He still texts me every day telling me he misses me & he always has a smile on his face when I text him back.  I want him as a friend.  I guess that’s what we are.  Friends that never see one another.

He did stop by a few weeks ago and we had small talk.  As he was leaving he paused and turned around and said you have no idea how hard it is to leave you.  I want to rent a place and get out of the mess he is in except he can’t due to his choice to stay.

After that I did hurt for a few hrs. and put my big girl pants on and told myself enough is enough.

I feel safe knowing he is there even if I don’t see him.

My washing machine quit working & needed to have someone come  look at it.  I called 5 different places and was told it would be at least 6-8 weeks.  I did text him and asked if he knew anyone and he said he would stop by on his way to work and look at it.

He said it was not an easy fix but maybe someone could fix it rather than purchase a new one.  New ones are so cheaply made and don’t last.  With his call, someone was here in an hour.

I have discovered it’s his power I like.  He knows everyone in town and he makes a call like waving a magic wand & someone is available for him.  Even if they know I am friends with him I get better treatment.  Sad, but true.

Does that make me keeping him at arm’s length by texting him back when he sends a text using him?  I know the answer “YES”.

I take Stash my sweet baby that has a heart condition to have him bathed and shaved.  His hair is so long that he throws up hairballs.  I know he will feel better once he gets it taken care of.  He will be scared but happy when he gets back home.

Take Care My Friend,

Shookie~