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Hi there. Ivygrl again.
First of all, I feel better. My problem turns out to be misconcepted. Based on the very first message in the forum, my Mom, stepfather, and I were upset that day, my original caretaker actually was a mean, harsh person (the thing i did not notice was that she had a harsh issue and obviously she had a boyfriend who has had problem with her in her life and complained and wasn’t successful. My original caretaker Made me cry a lot as well in the library). And she was kicked out and banned from my caretaker list right after the incident, and that’s why i wrote the very first message forum. I also did get punished at the Time. But i was so upset and stressed and stubborn and didn’t know how to change at the Time.
And yes i do have autism, and some adhd issues, But my problem now isn’t about autism. It’s about my lack of proper Attitude that caused myself problems. I was so upset and angry i didn’t know how to Let go and become a better person. But my teachers are trying to help me.
Second, I also want to know that i have a brain problem where i can’t always get what i want. How do i fix and mend this problem realisticly and not creaste tantrums? Other than that, i’m going to try to make my own stories, and have fun.
I am so sorry i was upset and mean. Can you forgive me? I have my own future and dream to realize, But i want to be better and More flexible. I want to do More yoga and savasana. I’m sorry . I hope you are fine and i want to be happy and not bored. Btw, moved to a new apartment (not gonna Tell you where though).
Thirdly, i’m in a new apartment. I feel better But i’m scared of being an outsider at my new job program site, when i finish senior year of my high school. I want to be happy and not sad. What should i do now to be on a better Path?
By the way i’ll make my own journals and diaries private, because i don’t want then to laugh at me and think my stories are trash. These journals i Will make them into comics. I won’t publish anything until i practice a lot. How should i practice.
I got this , and i can rise again.
<p style=”text-align: left;”>From, Ivygrl.</p>