I am happy to hear you have been well, despite only having text communication, you have been an amazing support in my life when i feel i have no where else to turn. I am very grateful for you!

While i have made significant improvements in my mental health, shame has been the most difficult thing to work with. Being in relationships triggers my shame the worst. At the same time i realize i need to be triggered to an extent to work on healing the wounded parts of myself. Unfortunately due to the high financial stress i have been under since the start of the pandemic i have been more isolated these past few years. Lately i’m having a hard time responding to calls, texts, emails etc. Everything feels exhausting.

I also realized there is no respite for me in the near or distant future, I have no choice but to continue working day in and day out if i want to keep my independence. At the same time my stress levels are unsustainable. My goal is to be internally well no matter what my external circumstances may be. I have been slacking on my self-work, I dont meditate, exercise, self-reflect, or socialize as much as i need to. I’m not giving up though!