@anita

Thanks for the kind words, I really appreciate the help and support through this. I just dont want anyone to think I have given up hope… but for all the time I have hope I put myself in limbo. Meaning I hope she will change her mind and reconnect, but then that makes me pause at trying to move on – catch 22 scenario and the cycle continues!!

Taking the control for myself is all I can do, I will continue to be a loving and supportive father and I have the children with me 50% of the time including through the week and weekends and I really do not anticipate any change there. I feel very alone when my children are not there and I am a very affectionate and loving person. Holding on to a hope of reconnecting is me looking backwards instead of forwards and I am making a change for me and nobody else, who knows what will happen! But it has been 17 years since dating and being with another woman…

One thing I am sure of is that I feel equipped and ready as an independent father and responsible adult to allow myself to move on and meet new people.

I will of course keep you updated as the journey continues

Dave