Hi SereneWolf,

Ohh Thanks I’m glad! You were and are still helping me throughout my mental health so at least I’m able to help a little haha

Yes, you are. You’ve been a steady supporter of mine, as well. So I thank you too!

I understand but I think if you’ll fight with both it won’t be that effective imo. So what do you think what would happen if you only have choice to focus on one thing instead of both?

Actually, I’ve been battling my health battle last year mostly. It was tough, but I’ve learned a lot about myself (including that I have health anxiety and how to manage it). So I am much more aware now of the various distractions that can keep me from focusing on my career and reaching my goals. So I hope I can stay more on track, even while still dealing with health issues as needed.

I know right it’s like that underlying pain. And then that smile we trying to have feels kind of less genuine.

Ah yes, your bright smile that you show for your mom… Yeah, you had to hide your pain a lot, you needed to pretend that you were fine, otherwise your mom would worry, right?

Come to think about it, that’s probably one of your core beliefs: “I can’t show my weakness.” And I think it’s both because of your strict, judgmental father, and because of your worrying mother. You didn’t want to show your pain and your weakness to either of them…. Would you agree with that?

Thanks for sharing I’ll watch it and let you know.

You’re welcome. Yeah please do if you find the time, it’s pretty eye opening…

Yes I agree with that and thanks for that reminder again. I need to write this down again because apparently I do need this same reminder repeatedly time to time.

Yes! You’re right that’s why one of the reasons I’m using LinkedIn much less than before. Mainly for communication and network building. Because it would give me that “ranking list” pressure even more

Great! Glad that you’re using LinkedIn less nowadays, and for a very specific purpose, not to compare yourself to others. Some people get that pressure from Facebook too, like watching other people’s seemingly perfect lives and achievements, and feeling bad about themselves.

And yes, you can even right it down, perhaps a little reminder like: “Integrity is the name of my game. Comparison – go home”. Or anything that sounds motivating to you 🙂

I guess one way or another subconsciously I am comparing myself with others and I agree and “living in accordance to your true values” I did journal about this quite a while ago and I put lot of thought into that but so many things came up yet I still wrote it down. So I believe (not 100% sure) that my core values are Freedom, Simplicity, Honesty and Altruism…with added Open mindedness, Adventure, Wisdom, Faith and Inner peace. But how can I be sure what are my true values?

Hmmm…. because you were journaling about it? It came from within you, not from some outer source. It feels like these values are really yours, they are not something that “sounds good” but doesn’t have a deeper value for you.

And I can also see that here, on your thread, you’re actually behaving according to those values, e.g. you are very honest and open, you speak openly about your issues and struggles. You are very open-minded, willing to examine various concepts and ideas, and go there where in the beginning you were afraid to go (like the concept of inner child 🙂 ).

You are also altruistic because I feel you genuinely care about other people, e.g. you inquired about me, even after I’ve “ghosted” you twice (again I apologize for that).

Adventure and Freedom is something you have been living your whole life, and want to keep living, so I don’t need to explain that… 🙂

So yeah, I can see that you are living many of those values already… which means your are in touch with your true self, and indeed, you’ve got a lot of Integrity!

Well, Healthwise I’m doing alright but last week when I went for donate my blood, they gave me this report and told me that I have to gain my weight and hemoglobin %

Oh you’re iron deficient? They say to eat blueberries if one is iron deficient…

And Idk what’s happening, because I’m rarely eating out and 99% of the time I’m having home cooked meals mostly full of green vegetables curries.

Yeah, that’s strange, if you eat well and healthy. Your blood work is good otherwise, right? How about your thyroid?

How about you? In your condition healthy food can make a difference?

No, not really. I mean, it’s good to eat food rich in Omega 3 acids, because that’s allegedly good for the spine health. And I take supplements for my knee cartilage. But other than that, normal balanced diet is recommended, nothing special.

I’ll reply about the relationship and attachment part in a separate post…