Dear Anita,
<p style=”text-align: left;”>Thanks for your detailed feedback. I feel the situation to be better at the moment, and I have been able to deal with moments of intrusive thinking most of the times if not every single time. But somewhere in my mind I feel that whatever I experience is not only because of ruminating over certain thoughts, it’s not just about that. What scares me is how I visualise myself while imagining what if situations, how I imagine myself weeping in a close room shutting myself from everything else, with no desire to do anything for self care or for taking myself out of that situation. Looking back now, I feel I was indulging in self destructive activities back then during the time of distress and my intrusive thoughts include doing such self destructive activities in my what if scenarios. One thing that occured to me as a possible reason was lack of self compassion, but I am not very sure. Sometimes I feel as if I am getting depressed even though everything is going well right now.</p>