Dear Tee,

“She sent it to you? When is the conversation between the two of them dated?” Yes, she sent it, and the conversation occurred on June 4th.

“I wouldn’t be surprised if she flirted with your friend too.” She sent the full conversation, which includes her response to him, and there was no flirting.

“BTW if he really wants to pursue her, in spite of everything you told him about her, well good luck, he’ll have to learn his lesson the hard way.” The guy said “Everyone’s interactions with people are unique and different. It might not be the same for us.” Basically he thinks that he will have a different/better experience with her than me ig.

“You need to control the physical expression of your anger, even if you feel anger inside.” Yeah it is under control rn, idk about when I see him, but rn it is under control. I am teaching myself acceptance. To accept the way life is and just move on and not let it affect me.

“Have you talked to him about her allegations (that he was hitting on her)?” Nope, he specifically told her not to tell me, and B requested that I not tell him that she told me. So I am just going to stay silent and see what happens. Based on the response B gave, he might not try it again, but if he does, ig we will see.

“Yeah, narcissists are like that… and if you call them out, they’ll accuse you right back – that you are a narcissist. Has she done that?” Yep, she has. Her lack of listening and other behaviors are why I call her a brick wall, cause nothing I say gets into her head.

“What do you need to understand? Has she started repaying your laptop, or she is still finding excuses to delay it?” I don’t need to understand. I am just trying to respect her by listening to her and make her feel understood so that she may give the mutual respect for me and actually listen to me as well. I know it is stupid but I am working on improving myself by teaching myself to be more understanding. She is showing signs of planning to delay the payment but I am not in Jamaica yet so we will see once I get back.

“Are you still caught in a conflict with her, with arguments, mutual accusations, insults, things like that?” We barely talk, but when we do, it ends up in a fight. After all, I have to maintain contact with her so I can get my money back. Besides that fight happened after she showed me the evidence with my guy friend. And though I didn’t say she seduced him or flirted with him, I told her that she probably made him feel too comfortable, which made him want to say the things he said. Besides, she had been posting her modeling pictures on her status too so I am not amazed he got intrigued.

“Because if not, then your ongoing conflict is just a smokescreen, which she uses to justify her defiance and her refusal to give you back your money.” Could be. She paid me once, but it will probably take another 8-9 months before she can completely pay me back. Now she is telling me she started attending trading class and etc so she need the money for that. I am going to see what happens when I get back to college.

“A boxing bag might be a good idea – a safe way to physically express anger without hurting anybody…” Yeah lol I was thinking about a punching bag too, I am probably going to find one and use it when I get time. But my anger is very controlled rn, but it might burst when I see him, so idk. We will see.

Paradoxy