Hi dear Tee,

I’m happy too, to hear from you 🙂

Really happy to hear this! That means you don’t even feel it for the most part, right? Are you still skating? And yeah, better not try full-time construction job, because that would for sure aggravate it.

Yeah, still skating and I’ve done some hours of construction work.

My back is a little better too, thank God. But now my knee problem got reactivated, after having been dormant for 1.5 years (since my back injury). I hope it stays manageable and doesn’t escalate, specially now, before the summer holidays.

Let’s hope for the best. True holiday’s coming. What do you have planned?

It felt emotionally distant, right? As if it didn’t affect you?

You know when adult’s say to kids that they are simulating? Like that. It feels distant, it does affect me cause of the self betrayal.

But then, as you were writing your reply, you had an encounter with your mother, and then you felt it emotionally?

I saw it very clear, the ambivalence between being my mum’s child and in a way father.

Am I guessing this right?

Yes, subconsciously it makes it hard to do things in live I want to do.

Can you give me an example of something you’d like to express to her, but you worry that she will worry and will try to talk you out of it? (and thus control you)?

Mhh, since the last encounter I don’t wanna express anything to her. I would like to express myself. Affection, a hug.

Can you give me an example of a request she makes on you, which you deem as not selfless, and then you can’t do it?

It’s simple things in the household clean the kitchen. Mostly it is support.

Thanks for asking.