“You are talking about a country in the Caribbeans, with the majority Indian population, right?” No, wrong again. I live in the Bahamas. The majority ethnicity here is Bahamians and most of them are Christians. The Indian community here consists of mostly Hindus, and most of them are businessmen or accountants etc involved in some kind of business scheme which sometimes tend to be fraudulent. The Christians among us Indians are more in the medical field, varying between nurses and doctors mainly but there are some teachers and some engineers like my father among us. The disparity between the religious groups tends to cause political conflict between the members of the community to the point that the organization had to be completely shut down or reduced to barely any activity. However, this just reflects how messed up India actually is. The politicians there take advantage of this religious disparity to cause conflict and hate between the religious groups and because the majority consists of Hindus, the government manipulates them into reinstating the same party as the ruling party, making them believe that the government is supporting them when actually they are just using their time to get themself involved in more corrupt activities cause of their own greed. The government and the people are so stupid that they managed to convince the Hindus that they can fight the coronavirus by just making noise with a bunch of plates and other cooking utensils. Even highly educated Indian fools in the US were stupid enough to believe the government and make noise with their cooking utensils.

“I was under the impression that the distances in the Caribbeans are not so huge, but they are, obviously 🙂” Ok that was a mistake on my part. The distance is just around 500 miles, with a one-hour time zone difference, but my point remains the same: they are still able to maintain control of me despite the distance.

“You excuse their emotional abuse and are even grateful for it, because it supposedly made you more mature than your peers. At the same time, you refuse to see how their emotional abuse negatively affected your self-confidence, communication skills and e.g. the ability to make a good impression at interviews.” No u misunderstand. I do acknowledge that their emotional abuse did negatively affect me. Are you familiar with the phrase, hard times create strong men, strong men create easy times, easy times create weak men and weak men create hard times? The harsh treatment I received from my parents and my peers developed the sense of morals that I have today, both good and bad, and despite all my suffering, it motivated me to pursue one of the hardest careers. I may fail in my interpersonal relationships and I may be mentally and emotionally unhealthy, but it is not like anyone actually cares about whether I am healthy or not. What society cares about is what I bring to the table. And I am going to bring medical care. Maybe I will never be truly happy, but at least I know that one day I might be able to bring a smile to someone else.

“Which is like saying that drinking poison didn’t really harm you – on the contrary it had a positive impact on your body.” Lol. Actually, the more accurate comparison would be that I slowly drank poison in small amounts until I eventually became immune to it. So yes, I did suffer in the beginning, but eventually, I might just get over it and use it to propel me forward. Maybe God made me go through this so I understand what it feels like. Maybe he figured that some things are best learned by experience. Maybe he placed B in my life to teach me to not trust someone blindly. Maybe it is self-deception, but hey, it could be a possibility yk?

“This is why I am saying that you are defending your parents and refusing to see how they have contributed to your present-day problems.” I am not defending them. I am looking at the positives and the negatives. I can’t just look at the bad side only. Maybe I would have been different if I was not Indian, but if I grew up with a different Indian family, the result would be the same. Changing my parents won’t exactly change the lifestyle, and it definitely wont change how my peers treat me.

“So you are washing them free from all responsibility, and even claiming that their abuse did you good. Which as I said, is severe self-gaslighting.” Please don’t misunderstand. I am not saying they don’t deserve the blame. I am saying that we have to acknowledge that they are the reason for my bad side AND my good side. They are not responsible for just the bad. I am grateful for the good, and I hate the bad. That is all I am saying. I am not defending them. I definitely won’t be forgetting the things they did.

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