Dear YOR:

Good to read from you again, you are welcome, and thank you for expressing your appreciation!

“It was very difficult, and I still feel it is.. to get completely over what happened“- understandably, it’s been painful, still is.

“I tend to be repetitive when I am hurt“- I tend to be repetitive, hurt or not (lol), therefore, I am not one to judge you for repeating!

“When he visited me the last time, I met him after 10 months, and I leaned over for a kiss (which is normal in our relationship) he stopped me, and when I tried hugging, he pushed me away. Such actions made me feel so unloved that I feel like I will never find anyone in my life… And being alone for the whole of my life scares the hell out of me – I am a bit cowardly in this“-

– the man who stopped you when you leaned over for a kiss, the man who pushed you away when you tried hugging him, is also a man who calls on evil spirits to serve him, a man who demanded that you “start believing in black magic… adapt to his religion fully, do all the prayers, black magic and all” (March 24).

I am thinking that as long as you stay away from men who try to pull evil spirits into their lives (and into others’ lives),  you are likely to find a man who will not push you away, and therefore, you will not be alone for long!

“I know that I should move on. And I think after 7-8 months now, I am getting comfortable in my own company, being alone and not feeling lonely“- good thing!

“But whenever the thought of future comes in my mind, I feel so uneasy. And I hate to admit this, but a part of me is still hoping that everything will fall into place and he will come back and save our relationship and I will be with him“-

– the future is unknown, so that causes you anxiety. The past is known, and when you remember the good parts (“my ex boyfriend… was super kind, super nice, just absolutely perfect in all ways.. we got closer, and everything felt like a dream… My ex supported me during the tough times“, March 24), the memories give you comfort/ lessen your anxiety. So, no wonder that part of you is hoping for the good memories to return to real-life.

I hope to read from you again- anytime you feel like sharing your thoughts and feelings, fears and longings, and more.

anita