Hey anita

Yeah, she told me that telling her all these things while being unfazed/calm must be something worrying/worth looking into. But i think i’ve made peace with all those things, what’s done is done, i can only move on. I dont know if im unaffected tbh, but i feel like i’ve moved on from my past. Not that i forget, it just doesn’t affect me. U think i could be suppressing unknowingly?

Emotional decay sounds about right for my case. Like with this girl when i met her and i couldn’t stop kissing/hugging her, i remember it was amazing and addictive, but i can’t feel it, hence i can’t crave it 🙁