Anita!!
How unusual! I was just coming on here to send you a message and I didn’t realise you had sent me one ☺️

Lovely as always to hear from you, Anita. Since we last spoke, I have finished my exams, have been living with my brother for a month and going to-from my parents’.

Everyone asks me : how do you feel now that you have finished? And my first thought is: tired. Some people say it’s burn out – I think it’s a sustained pressure of my previous job and doing these exams (so 2 years of non-stop essentially).

I also feel like I’m ‘almost’ over the line, because I have an interview on Tuesday. Whilst it’s not the exams, it still feels like once that is done, then I can fully relax. Not to delay relaxing (I am writing this message in the bath as we speak!), but it does feel that way to me.

I feel like I am unconsciously fitting my schedule around my brother – he did not come home last night. I don’t worry obsessively, it’s more that feeling of waiting up for him or listening out whilst sleeping. I asked him once whether he was coming home and he told me I didn’t need to worry about him and that I ‘wasn’t his mum or a teenager and he could do what he liked’. He has softened but is still emotionally spiky and unpredictable.

Also, the guy who my parents didn’t like is back in town. I have put off seeing him until after my interview because I didn’t want any man getting in the way for this year, as they have done in the past. I’m glad I did because he is unreliable too. But friends have mixed views on whether I should see him. I want to.

I have missed your wisdom and it truly is divine timing that I logged into Tiny Buddha.

How are you doing? 🩷