Hello Dawson,

I wish I had some super amazing advice to give you, but all I can think to do is point you to a book because I think these issues you’re facing have to do with the patterns you’ve learned over time. It’s a really tough thing to change how we think and our actions. We can have all the great intentions in the world and still never act upon them. It’s all about habit, how many of us are in auto-pilot. Essentially, our brains are running the same program over and over again!

Anywho, to the book recommendation; it’s called Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One by Dr. Joe Dispenza.

Hope it sparks something in you!