Hello there !
Oh dear haven’t we all had these times? I used to have them ALL THE time! It is extremely normal to feel this way when you are worried about what others think of you which is probably the reason why you are so hesitant to do anything. Try to remember that you can’t control what others think of you and that the worst people in the world like Hitler, had followers and admirers while the best people like Mother Teresa (pardon my spelling if I misspelled her name) had haters! So whether or not you are doing what your heart wants some will like you and some wont. But that is not important what is more important is you loving yourself , so the next time something comes into your heart or into your mind just do it! If it is something you are going to say or do just do it as long as you are respecting yourself and those around you, nothing bad is going to happen. Yeah you might have someone say something back to you or think of you differently , but wouldn’t you rather be hated for something you were than something you weren’t? And loved for something you were than something you weren’t? Just do whatever is in your heart from now on , or at least try to do one thing a day where you don’t hesitate about it and keep it in a journal just to see your progress on it take it day by day and sooner or later you will see a major change in yourself and you will start to feel more confident. Remember what comes into your mind is there for a reason so let the world hear your important opinion and show your beautiful uniqueness! “It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society”. Jiddu Krishnamurti. Why want to sound like all of them or want them to like you? Just be your beautiful self and shine on you were made to have different opinions than other people, we all were otherwise the world would not grow at all would it?
Alpal