Dear Pamela,
I’m so happy to hear that you have commuted to taking the meds! But, they are not working yet, or possibly they are not the best ones. It takes a bit of trial and error to get to the right ones, so be patient and learn as much as you can about your depression and the meds.
Next, your life is gone. In fact, it probably seems like there isn’t one now, or one that’s worth living. Those are normal at this time. But, you are taking the best steps that anyone can do in the situation (to add to this, few people make it to where you are, so I’m positive you will get through this simply because you made it this far) you are taking the meds, seeking counseling, and reaching out. One thing you may want to add is to listen to your intuition. It will sound like a whisper, and is usually rather faint but always feels true. It will take practice to learn to hear it, but it won’t fail you. Last, remember the illness is a part of you, it is not you. It is not your identity, it’s only a challenge (albeit a big one) that you are tackling head on. Fall down seven times…stand up eight!