Dear moon,
You only have one problem, not a bunch if them. You need a hug. I don’t mean this in jest. Connection is the strongest factor in maintaining resilience and happiness (as well as mental health in general). Put every effort you can spare into making meaningful connections. Make sure you have touch in your life. If people are not touched, their light burns out. If you can get those connections started, the other stuff will fade. It sucks that you can’t give a hug through the internet (yet) but consider yourself hugged!