Lars- thank you for giving me a different perspective to all this. You are so positive! It did not come from an evil heart, you are right. But it still hurt someone. Thank you for your kind words and i will try to give some advice on your situation when I have more time. Also, thanks for the books! I was actually looking for something to read that would inspire me so that is perfect :).

Marko- first off, are you from Balkan? Croatia, Serbia, anywhere? You are also super positive, you guys are very inspiring! You are embracing this time of grieving and that is quite impressive. I tried meditation but I find it very difficult to focus on my body without freaking out. I think I need some guidelines to learn how to do meditation so if you have any tips…:).