“I do not know who I am or what I am doing here. I feel I am unable to “give” anything to anyone, although I would like a meaningful job that does give me the opportunity to help others. I want to do something to turn my life around. I am lost.”

This really stuck out at me. You have SO much to give, way more than you can even see. I am truly sorry for all of your despair and helplessness but as previous post have said, you are not alone. You have (and still are) gone through an experience that many people have and are going through as well. I cant relate and help those people as much as you can because I have not been in your situation. You are able to GIVE these people who are desperate and lost the gift of being able to relate to them because you have been there yourself.

Find something outside of yourself to guide you

…all those people that you have not met yet that may meet who may need your story to know how to handle their own a little better.

And as for being lost: “Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves” -Henry David Thoreau