Hi Mattr,

You sound more depressed than I had originally noticed noticed.

(By the way, I stick with my observations of great strengths that you have in you.)

I am glad that you have something scheduled to look forward to, I think finding more things you can look forward to May help?

You may feel so negative but can you do things to “fake it?” Like sometimes when I’m depressed I ask my son if he wants to go bike riding later. He always says yes, and I won’t let him down, so I will end up going even if I feel awful and then I end up feeling quite good about it. Can you find a way to force some activity that gets your body moving or puts you outdoors or that in the past you know you do that feels at least neutral vs depressing?