What can i say. So many people responding to my bad feelings. Thank you all for sharing your thoughts with me.
I read all of your posts carefully leaving sighs of mutual connection, sympathy and gratitude!
I will reply to each of you in a single post, to avoid confusion.
Dear Anita
Thank you for your heartfull response. I stopped speaking with my father-and seeing him also-about 3 months ago after many years of, as you described, unmet pleas for love. In the meantime i searched for my father in the face of my teachers, friends, siblings. Until today, that i decided to adress this need. Still it is not easy to build a solid self from scratch. I am sorry i can’t share more with you right now. My exams are approaching and i decided to give them a shot… Despite being emotionally drained, maybe they will distract me for a while. And last but not least, of course i am happy for you Anita! I wish the very best for you. Despite me having problems to connect with other people, making friends(not just acquaintances) i am very happy when other people that had difficulties growing up, gathered the strenth and are building their lives again! This gives me joy and courage!
Take care
George
Though I run this site, it is not mine. It's ours. It's not about me. It's about us. Your stories and your wisdom are just as meaningful as mine. 