Ty for the kind words, but mate, 4 years of greveing are really too much. And I’m gonna be honest with you, you should move on. Just take look on the internet and you’ll see only a tiny fraction of beautiful women out there. And I don’t mean you should find someone who’s beautiful only on the outside, cause that has no future and that person has to grow to be beautiful on the inside as well. Yeah it is hard, but you can also put a positive spin on it. She doesn’t know what you’re doing or where you are or how you are, and that’s a good thing. Cause now you have the time and space to work on yourself and be if nothing else just a bit better version than the day before. And when she sees you in a few months/years, she’ll see all the changes and say wow. She also might want you back, but I doubt it that you’ll want her back cause when you change your toughts and goals change too.

Tell me, why did she deserve all of this attention that you’re giving to her? If you wait for her, that’s like rewarding her bad behaviour, and she’ll see that she doesn’t have to better herself to have you. The only way to be happy is to be sure of who you are and be happy with it, without needing outisde confirmation.

I too still feel bad but it’s been 2 months for me since the break up, and I’ve been actively wokring on myself every day since then. Why should I suffer for the rest of my life just cause someone decided to go? You wanna go? Then go. Fine with me. I know who I am, what I bring to the table, and what she’ll be missing out on. Plus I’m growing every single day as a man and there is more and more every day to miss. So it’s her loss. Cause I’m also aware how many beautifull women are out there, and who knows, mabye I’ll find someone who’s better suited for me than her, but I’ll never know if I stay depressed and focused because someone didn’t know how to deal and express their feelings, and left when it got a bit hard. And to be honest you don’t want sucha a person in your life, who gets out when it gets a bit rough. You should focus on being your best self and the right person I believe will come along into your life.

Mabye with time she’ll want to come back to you, but then you’ll be the one who’s gonna decide what’s to happen and she’d have to give a lot of effort into it all to win you back over. I know I’m that type of guy and you can be too. Don’t waste your life on a memory or an illusion, cause you have nothing from it and you’ll never get the time back.

I still miss the things I had with her, but that doesn’t mean I should stop living my life and enyoing it. Decide now how your life is gonna go on. You have two paths to go. Stay as you are, be sad, and don’t give it a chance to get better, or work every day on yourself and with time become this awesome independent individual who lives life to the fullest. 🙂