Dear Anita,

“If you want, we can go on and on about this on this thread, you post, I post on and on and if this thread gets too long, then start a new one…Your choice. I am willing.” This sounds great. I would very much like to do that.

I can relate to feeling spaced out and not paying attention. For me, it happens all the time. I could be talking to someone, listening to them talk while my mind is elsewhere. It happens more than I’d like, again, because my mind just doesn’t know how to stay still. At any moment, I’ll be thinking, speaking to myself about whatever is on my mind, or just dazing off.

You’re right, it probably won’t make a difference. Not much they can do anyway beside prescribe me something.

“The Child Pose, the Corpse Pose and the chest opener (standing and arms to the side, chest in front, or lying down on a pillow so your chest is up) are the three… as well as some stretches. In this regard yoga is really stretching and relaxing, not performing or exercising. Do the relaxing stretches and resting ones only.” Those happen to be my favorite poses when doing yoga, along with a few others. I like that you said yoga is about relaxing not exercising. The way everyone else says it they make it seem like a sport about being flexible and I’ve always had a hard time with it. I struggle with a vast number of the poses and find myself uncomfortable most of the time,unable to reach the mindfulness I seek. I like the idea of doing just a few poses at my pace. For some reason I was not focusing onbeing mindful of my body, relaxing or my breathing. Rather I was trying to keep up with the various poses trying to achieve them as best as I could.

“You have what it takes, Aislynn: I know you do. I don’t write something like this, that you have what it takes, just to anyone. I stick to reality and to what I believe is true and real and so when I wrote you have what it takes, I mean it.” This means a lot to me. It really does. It helps that someone else besides myself believes it is possible for me to become mindful and reduce and control my anxiety. It means a lot because I’ve dealt with the anxiety and behaviors most of my life all by myself. Sure, they know about a few of my obsessive behaviors, but they don’t know the full extent. I can’t even imagine what my family would think if I told them about it.

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