i think it’s a little too personal anita. i was going to write it and then delete it after you read it, but i don’t think you can do that. not mobile anyway.

i think i just have a thing where no one can stay with me too long. either no one actually ever liked me or they have me around for their own benefit (like if people’s plans fall through, i’m the next to fill that void). but this was never the case with my grandpa. he actually loved me and i know it for sure. i guess there’s just something about me that won’t let me keep people around. something beyond the physical world i think.