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January 3, 2018 at 1:32 am #184805lexy99Participant
Work is causing my alot of anxiety recently but I wonder if it’s just me or the job.
I started working at a coffee shop chain when I was 16 and by last year I was a store manager. I was thrown into the role and hated it, it caused me such stress that I left. I have had a couple of other jobs but always ended up back at the coffee shop.
Since the manager role, I left permanently last April and now work in property management for a letting agent. It’s been ok so far but over the last month or so my anxiety has risen greatly. It’s a phone based role, helping tenants and landlords with maintenance mainly and their security deposits. Lately my anxiety is rising so much that I just don’t want to be here, I don’t want to do it. When I worry about something, rather than tackle it, my first instinct is to run away and im starting to think about leaving just so I don’t have to do this anymore. The upper management want us to make 40 calls a day and not only do I not have enough work, I can’t do that. My anxiety won’t let me, I don’t want to do it.
When I applied here, I actually applied for an inspector role, someone who visits properties and does the reports. That job was made redundant at the last minute and they offered me this instead. So i took it. I liked it initially but I never know what’s going to happen, who I’ll have to call and deal with and I just can’t do it. I keep hoping that the current inspector will leave so I can apply for her job.
I’ve spoken to HR who are going to speak with my manager for me. Luckily she is lovely but I know that I cant just not make calls or do certain things because that’s my job. You can’t tell a policeman he doesn’t have to arrest anyone because it gives him anxiety!
I’m tempted to find a job away from the office, making calls sort of environment but my partner pointed out that every job has things that you hate doing. On the other hand, I never had anxiety at work until I was forced into management and now doing this job.
I just wanna run away and get a new job but I don’t know if that will help.
Another issue is that I do get bored in jobs quite quickly and like to do different things all the time. I applied for the other job because it was active and objective.
January 3, 2018 at 8:15 am #184863AnonymousGuestDear lexy99:
You wrote that you wonder “if it’s just me or the job”-
It is both. Your anxiety will disrupt every job you have, most likely, just as it disrupted every job you did have. It is also true that some jobs will encourage your anxiety more than others. So it is both: you and the job.
I call it “the macro and the micro” when dealing with anxiety:
the macro is changing jobs when it is wise to do so, or making changes in your current job, such as changing some of the requirements (less calls, for example)
the micro is managing and healing, if possible, in some of the following ways: quality psychotherapy, meditation, mindfulness practice, exercise, listening to relaxing music.
anita
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