He did it in the church porch with only the two of us present.

Tannhauser

There was only me and him in the church porch. No one else was around.

But I am at least grateful to him for allowing me to see organised religion for what it truly is: a total sham. A delusion, along with that book of shit that goes by the name of the Bible.

I am now of the firm conviction that there is no God. I’ve been through too much and seen too many other people suffer and die slowly whilst on dialysis to believe in it all anymore. It is utter, utter crap. I’m done with it. How can we possibly believe in a God when there is nothing to measure such a thing by? There is no justice in this world. Therefore there is no God. Simple.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Hello anita,

I do still play music in church, but I can’t see myself doing that for much longer. Thankfully I also play and compose music outside of church.

I still cannot fully grasp why this man made fun of me. As well as saying the Rosary every day at church, he also tends the shrine of Our Lady outside in the grounds. On the surface, he appears to be a model Christian, but obviously looks are deceptive.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Anita,

The problem with Christianity is that it is a religion of excuses. We make excuses for difficult parts of the Bible, for God’s erratic behaviour, or for the fact that the Bible is wrong about the nature of the Earth and the solar system. We also make excuses for the bad behaviour of so-called Christians with the immortal line: “the church is a hospital for sinners, not a museum for saints”.

I am tired of the excuses. What this man has done has really hit me hard and I don’t think I will get over it. I will have to leave now, I’ve seen through it all.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Anita,

I have decided to abandon all forms of spirituality, for I fear it is rotting my brain. I seem to be exhibiting all the classic signs of a grandiose delusion. I hate my parents for indoctrinating me into religion. It is their fault. I was a happier person before I was indoctrinated. I didn’t need God when I was a child. And I just accepted life as it was.

I hope that religion dies, for the sake of all the children of the world.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

My parents aren’t overtly religious. In fact they rarely mention God. You don’t really notice the Catholic mind-worm when your young, in fact my experiences of Catholicism at school were largely positive. It’s only later, when you run into the difficult issues concerning sex that the problems crop up. Should you have the misfortune to read the Magisterium’s thought on such subjects, you’ll feel so dirty and worthless that it can actually cause suicidal ideation. I stopped testosterone medication because of this, that’s how much of an effect Catholicism still has on people’s lives. I just wasn’t allowed to be human.

My life was much better when I was a child, when God never entered my head. I believe religion and belief are forms of mental illness. The more you concern yourself with God in your mind, the more unhappy you become.

At the moment, I have never felt as unhappy in all my life, which is why I’m dumping spirituality for the sake of my sanity.

Best wishes,

Tannhauser

Thanks Anita

Tannhauser