I’ve been reading posts in here and other threads on Tiny Buddha. I decided to finally post my own. I’ve been struggling with emotional and depressed feelings for the past couple months. Recently left college and my huge group of friends; we’re all spread out all over the place. Many don’t reach out to me and others I don’t take it too personally. There are a few that I do take really personally.
One of my friends lives 7 minutes away from me, it was luck we ended up next to each other. However, she refuses to hang out with anyone without her boyfriend, whom I am also friends with. I’ve been trying to hang out with her for over a month and she continues to travel to Boston to hang out with someone who I use to be friends with (ended because she is a poisonous person) every weekend! I keep feeling down because a lot of my friends gravitate towards this ‘old poisonous’ person, but all talk about how much they hate her. Its very confusing when they say all these mean things and continue to choose her over me. I feel like I need to just let go of all of these friends, but I don’t want to loose all my college friends. And of course Facebook makes it even worse.
Down and out about it for months and its gotten worse, I want to get ride of this knot in my stomach.